Well I want you to notice
To notice when I'm not around
To notice your eyes see straight through me
And speak to me without a sound
[Chorus]
I wanna hold you
Protect you from all of the things I've already endured
And I wanna show you
Show you all the things that this life has in
Store for you
And I'll always love you
The way that a father should love his daughter
When I woke up this morning
I cried as I walked to the door
I cried about how long I'll be away for
I cried about leaving you all alone
[Chorus]
Sweet Zoe Jane
Sweet Zoe Jane
So I wanted to say this
'Cause I wouldn't know where to begin
To explain to you what I have been through
To explain where your daddy has been
[Chorus]
Sweet Zoe Jane
Sweet Zoe Jane
Tuesday, November 27, 2012
Zoe Jane - Staind
Monday, September 3, 2012
Thursday, April 12, 2012
Motivation
It's interesting how motivation works. Or doesn't. I achieved my goals and gave birth to a beautiful baby girl in December 2011. The weight loss that facilitated all of this was a result of a strict diet and exercise program that i followed religiously. I was extremely motivated and focused on the goal of falling pregnant and bringing the baby to term. My weight after delivery was 71kg. Most excellent.
But to my shame, I have to report that these last five months I have been on maternity leave have been hard on my ability to will myself into going back on the program. Being tired from the sleepless nights meant that I didn't have the energy or the inclination to watch what I ate let alone exercise. I have grown addicted to the carbs again. I can see it. And even knowing this and deciding to go back on the program numerous times, I have still failed. Being at home with the baby is just not conducive to my discipline.
But no more. The scale was a wake up call this morning. I am now 75kg. I will not allow this to continue. Next week I will be back at work as well. It's time to begin again as I mean to go on. I will count these last few months as a holiday and now its time to get my life back on track. I will not have my child learn bad habits from me. So, here on this blog, for the world to see, I am setting my goal. I will weigh 65kg or less by the end of the year.That is 10kg in 8 months. Very achievable.
The trouble will be staying motivated. When I ask myself why am I doing this (and I know I will) I will need to have a concrete answer for myself. Something bigger and more important that the old "to be healthy". It will be a hard road to walk, but I have done this before. I know I can do it again.
But to my shame, I have to report that these last five months I have been on maternity leave have been hard on my ability to will myself into going back on the program. Being tired from the sleepless nights meant that I didn't have the energy or the inclination to watch what I ate let alone exercise. I have grown addicted to the carbs again. I can see it. And even knowing this and deciding to go back on the program numerous times, I have still failed. Being at home with the baby is just not conducive to my discipline.
But no more. The scale was a wake up call this morning. I am now 75kg. I will not allow this to continue. Next week I will be back at work as well. It's time to begin again as I mean to go on. I will count these last few months as a holiday and now its time to get my life back on track. I will not have my child learn bad habits from me. So, here on this blog, for the world to see, I am setting my goal. I will weigh 65kg or less by the end of the year.That is 10kg in 8 months. Very achievable.
The trouble will be staying motivated. When I ask myself why am I doing this (and I know I will) I will need to have a concrete answer for myself. Something bigger and more important that the old "to be healthy". It will be a hard road to walk, but I have done this before. I know I can do it again.
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